Saturday December 5, 2009: TGIF [kinda] and These Days

Song on Repeat: "White Christmas" by Burl Ives
Mood: tired
"I'm dreaming
Of a white Christmas
Just like the ones
I used to know"

It's snowing! It looks so pretty out. I love it.
The silence and peacfulness, unlike when it's raining. The coldness that you can imagine, but can't feel unless you're experiencing it. I love when it snows, especially when we're at school!
It's so awesome to be looking out the window at school and seeing the snow falling past it, especially in the cafeteria.
I have no idea why, but it's even more magical there than at home.

Anyways, I'm soooooo glad it's the weekend.
I mean, it's not like this week was especially terrible or anything, but it's kinda a relief for it to be over.
The snow is falling even harder now! It's not like it's really think, heavy snow, but it's snow.
I like the relaxing feel of this weekend.
Today, Sister Dearest's first basketball game is at 2, and tonight we're going to a holiday jazz concert thingy at my school.
I could have volunteered to usher at it, but if I had, I would have missed my bus so I'm just going to watch with The Parentals and Sister Dearest, who by the way, got home from outdoor school yesterday.
So I mean, I can't say TGIF today, but I'm glad it's the weekend.

I watched my friend Molly play her first basketball game of the season last night at her school with some friends that also go there that I don't see that often.
It made me a little upset though, for not being able to be on any teams.
I have to walk through school and places and see the girl who kinda made me fall, and I can't help but be a little mad at her. I'm out for the whole season because of that, and she's on the JV team as far as I know. Like gee, thanks.
Even if I hadn't made the team for the school, I would have played rec, and now I can't even do that.
I was kinda happy about having the free time a few weeks ago, but now I feel lame because I don't have anything to do and all of my friends are busy with stuff.
Work, sports, lessons, dating.....and I'm at home eating junk food and watching tv, wishing I had something better to do.
My guess is that Delilah is going to get some more loving this winter, since I don't have much else to do. (For those of you who don't know or remember, Delilah is my trumpet, not a person).

Now, I have to get ready to go to Sister Dearest's game. Woo freaking hoo.

Peace, Magic, and Music,

~*Me*~

Tuesday December 1, 2009: Updates, and Another Letter

Song on Repeat: "Why" by Secondhand Serenade
Mood: Slightly nervous, jumpy in my stomach
"The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos
I was getting in
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you
Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?"

Don't you just love it when you find a song that's totally describing you at the moment? (See song above).

So, updates on my life (since I've been busy/lazy and haven't posted since last week).
Sister Dearest is at Outdoor School, which means I get to be an only child all week!
And the latest big news, I'm getting an MRI on my stupid elbow tomorrow afternoon, since they STILL have yet to figure out what's definitely wrong with it. (I don't remember if I gave you the diagnosis on it, but they think it's sprained, although they aren't sure, hence the MRI.
So I'm a bit nervous about that. But I think it will be ok, and my friend that I will discuss later, says that he thinks I will do fine, and he has faith in me. Which, naturally, makes me feel a lot better! Friends are my all, I'd be so lost if I lost one of them.
And....*searches for other things to tell readers*
Ummmm......I got nothing.

So, onto my letter. As you may know, I'm not the biggest fan of doing this sort of thing on my blog, but I don't mind reading it on other people's. So here it goes.

Dear Friend,

We've been close for a while, I'm aware. However, may I remind you of your girlfriend? If you'll just direct your attention over to her.....
Not that I don't mind talking to you all the time. Actually, I love it. You're such an awesome friend, and I'm so lucky to have you. I know you're happy to have me, too.
You always make me laugh and smile, and you're so supportive. We don't get to see each other constantly, but when we do see each other, you're always so amazingly nice, like you don't mind the little difference in our ages.
All your supportiveness of me, and helping to boost my confidence to make me feel better about having the MRI tomorrow.
Plus, only a true guy friend would talk to you and be truely interested in your new shoes, or homecoming dress. Thank you for being there to be so amazing.
But see, the thing is, as much as I hate to say it, you being so nice is putting me dangerously close to the edge on the whole "liking you" thing. It's terrible, I tell you!
So see, I'm a bit confused. It's terrible.
So can you like, either marry your girlfriend or.....well, I'm not quite sure. And I don't really know what to say next. I'll just keep talking to you, like I have been all afternoon, trying to figure out life, and remember that today isn't November anymore.
Thank you for being such an amazing friend, you're great.

Sincerely,
Katie[TheBleuTrumpet]

OH boy. Yeah. So my band concert is next week, that's another detail of my life I forgot.
And yeah, that's all I have for now. Check out the changes I'm adding to here, and let me know what you think!

I'm off to buy new shoes[!!!!!].

Peace, Magic, and Music,

~*Me*~

Tuesday November 24, 2009: RIP

Song on Repeat: "Hate Me" by Blue October

Mood: Tired, extremely sad

"Hate me today,

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me so you can finally see what's good

For you."

First, before this rather depressing post, let me tell you that I actually expected more responses to my last post. So if you missed it, check it out.

Anyways.

Today started out normal, or as normal as any day this fall/end-of-the-summer has been. Which is code for It Was Raining. There's A Shocker.

So I woke up late (cuz we have all week off), played some Solitare on my iPod, and won!(That was after playing several games.....I got addicted last night and played until around 10:30 before I almost fell asleep in the middle of a game and decided to stop). Anyways. So I played, a couple games, won, and wandered downstairs. I had some breakfast (leftover pizza) and then went upstairs, got dressed and came back down. I played some more solitare, and The Mother reminded me to take care of my rabbit. And that is when my day changed.

I slipped on clogs, filled up a cup with water, and then walked outside.....

To find my little baby curled up in the corner with her nose mashed up against the side of her cage, and she couldn't have been comfortable.

I talked to her as I filled up her water, and she wasn't moving.

"Terrie? Baby boo? What's wrong, honey?" I said. I rubbed her back a little and she wasn't moving. I could see her breathing, and her eyes were open, but she wasn't moving.

I got a little concerned, so I got food and put it in her bowl. She still didn't move. And that was when I knew to be really concerned.

I ran over to the door, opened it, and yelled "Mom! There's something wrong with Terrie!"

She was confused, and came out, and we tried to figure out what was wrong.

About five or ten minutes later, we were in the car on our way to the vet for an emegency visit. Sister Dearest was crying from panic, I was frantically texting Michael because I just needed somebody to talk to, and The Mother was trying to concentrate on driving through the rain with Sister Dearest crying in the passenger seat, and me yelling at her to drive faster and being annoyed with the cars that dared to go in front of us and drive the speed limit.

Terrie meanwhile, was laying on her side, breathing very slowly, giving me half a panic attack from constantly peering into her travel-carrier thingy to make sure she was still breathing.

AND, add in the fact that The Mother is allergic to all animal hair.

To give you the short version, we ended up at the vet, waiting in an examination room while my poor baby was on oxygen and they were trying to warm her up with a machiene.

The Father came and waited with us.

Then, around 1:20 this afternoon, my poor little bunny died.

They weren't sure what was wrong with her. But she was very sick.

A little while ago, we buried her in my backyard.

I spent all afternoon crying as soon as I got home.

So yeah, it wasn't exactly the best day. Crying, texting, and reading was how I spent my afternoon.

I'm glad to have time here alone to write this and feed my addiction with.....I mean, watch, Degrassi. I love that show!

Why God wanted to take my bunny, I don't know. It's left me feeling rather selfish....what if I hadn't wasted that time playing Solitare, and eating the pizza. Would I have found her in that condition sooner? Would she have survived, because of having more time for care at the vet?

And last week, I'd been meaning to take her out of her cage and let her run around in her pen in the backyard, but I was too busy, too tired, too lazy to do it. She never got to do that again, before she died.

But she's hopping around in heaven, I'm sure, so it doesn't really matter.

I'll miss my little baby, but I know she's in a better place now, where she has all the freedom she wants.

Sorry this was kinda depressing, but I don't have anything else to talk about.

She was so adorable, right?

Well I'm off to watch some more Degrassi and and basketball.

Peace, Magic, and Music,

~*Me*~

Saturday November 21, 2009: Regarding The [AMAZING] Concert....

Song on Repeat: "Juliet" by LMNT

Mood: Tired, smiling happily at memories.

"I just want you to know

I wanna be your Romeo,

Hey Juliet!

Hey Juliet."

So as I promised like 2 weeks or something ago, here are some pictures and videos from The Concert from last night! It was freaking amazing, just fyi.

Nathan.Jason.

Cool picture of their screamer and Jason.

Nathan being crazy. (Sorry it's sideways).

Maddie and I.

Jason being awkard in the corner. (It's kinda an inside joke). (Yeah it's blurry and junk cuz it was dark.....whatever haha.)

Here is Nathan and Jason's band.

And while our favorite band (besides Nathan and Jason's) played, Jason was moshing....

Pretty crazy stuff.

It was so amazing, I bought two CD's. One from one band, one from the band that was playing while they were moshing, and also a shirt from them.

It was absolutely AH-MAZING. I'm soooooooo glad we went!!!!!!!

What do you people think?! I think it was awesome, clearly. Nathan and Jason were really happy we came. (You didn't hear it from me, but neither of their girlfriends were there.....haha. That's what friends are for!).

So I now have the CD's on my iPod (I may or may not have stayed up late last night putting the CD's and pictures/videos on the computer) and I'm going to wear the shirt on the first day of school when we go back next week. (Yes, that's right, we have all of this week off!).

I'm happy just thinking about it, haha. That concert was totally worthy of all the spazzing and hyperness all week.

Anyways, I'm off to eat.

Peace, Magic, and Music,

~*Me*~

Wednesday November 18, 2009: Waiting and Junk Going On

Song on Repeat: "Live Like We're Dying" by Kris Allen
Mood: Tired, excited
"Yeah, gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start thinkin' it
Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
Gotta live like we're dying"

So as for life lately, I have so much random crap going on.
Going absolutely crazy waiting for the concert! Only two days! The excitement is building to the point where I'm getting sure something will go wrong. I just don't have good luck with stuff like that. Many experiences. Like, say, the football games last week. And numerous others that I either forget, or am too lazy to mention. I'm hoping it will go well! And in the meantime, I'm trying my hardest not to think about it. Because that will hopefully decrease my chances of jinxing myself. Of course, my luck isn't so great, and I'm so excited.....
I'll just stop talking about it.
Anyways, so besides that.....something really bizarre, my room smells very good to me. Yeah. I think it's a combination of my makeup, and perfume that has been sprayed over the past couple years in my room.
It's flowery, and kinda fruity, like a little bit of strawberry. But it's weird, because it doesn't smell like my perfume....bizarre. But I still really like how it smells. Bizarre, I know. Stop laughing. Yes, I know you are. Hmph.

I decided to post links to some posts from this time last year. From November 18 last year, and here's from November 17 last year.
And for the record, yes of course, I still loves me some Shaun White! <33333
I want to get that snowboarding game for our Wii, cuz it's Shaun White, so I mean why wouldn't I want it?!
Which reminds me, I wonder where my sketch of him went.....huh. I really have no idea! I haven't seen it for a while though. Maybe it's in the living room or something.

Yeah, this post kinda failed. But I'm rather tired. So expect a more decent post tomorrow probably, and then at some point this weekend, with pictures from the concert!!! Eeks, I'm so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm off to watch some tv and relax.

Peace, Magic, and Music,

~*Me*~

Saturday November 14, 2009: Lately, and As Per Usual....

Song on Repeat: "Fifteen" by Taylor Swift

Mood: Lazy

"Count to ten,

Take it in,

This is life

Before you know who you're supposed to be

At fifteen"

Ah, Taylor Swift. She won the Entertainer of the Year Award at the CMA's. I knew she would. The only reason I saw that she actually won was because we recorded it on our tv for Sister Dearest to watch, and she had it on this morning.

I'm still tired, despite sleeping for about 11 hours. Weekends are wonderful.

So I didn't tell you about my wonderful expericence at the football games on Wednesday.

Well it was raining and freezing cold. The end. You can imagine how just crazily fun it was!

But my idiocy made it so I didn't have to be there as long.

See, this game was rescheduled from like September and it was originally supposed to be at Ian, Nathan, etc.'s school and I assumed it was going to be there when it was rescheduled, so I never looked it up to see if it had changed. So The Father and I are about a quarter of the way there (as in like 5 minutes away from my house) when we get a call from The Mother saying there are players on the field at my school. Oh crap. But we kept going because I had to get the tickets from Jason, and we figured we'd just drive back to my school if it was there. So we pull into a parking lot at the school, and sure enough, hardly a car in sight and nothing going on on the field. Well, crap. Katie The Idiot strikes again!

So we sat there for about ten minutes waiting for Jason (long story....I don't even know) and he finally got there, I got the tickets, we talked for a couple minutes, and then he went who-knows-where, and The Father took me all the way back to my school, so that I could sit through about 3 hours of football in the freezing cold. Pleasant experience, eh?

But I got the tickets[!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!] (and I'm so freaking excited!!!!) and got to see some of the games that I've been waiting for about two months to see.

And guess what? The sad part is that the weather was about the same as on the day that they had originally supposed to have been on. It's kinda funny, thinking about it.

So now I have the tickets set as my backround on my phone, and I'm already driving people crazy with my excitement for the concert. Oh yeah, and there's the fact that I'd originally been planning on seeing it with Cynthia, but she couldn't go, so I invited my friend Maddie, and now that it's been rescheduled, Cynthia could go. So I'm not really sure what I'm planning on doing. But Maddie is still going, as far as I know. I'll just take lot of pictures like I've already been planning, haha.

And Sister Dearest's play is going on right now. I watched it last night and I might again tonight. It's actually rather funny, although I feel terrible for Shakepeare! It's a parody of Romeo and Juliet, which I happen to love, despite the fact that I'm still a bit weirded out by the whole "love at first sight" thing. I mean, I believe in it and everything, but it confused me to read about it. I guess it's one of those things that you have to experience to really understand, right?

And besides that, nothing really going on.

As per usual, I've been looking at colleges. And a week or two ago, I hit gold. I think I found the school for me, and I'm thrilled about it.

Hello, Minnesota. I've spent a bunch of time on their website lately, and I really like it. I'd really like to go there! The only thing I don't like is that....-brace yourself-

Their marching band high-steps! I don't know if I can handle that after roll-stepping all through high school (besides when I'm drum major). But you know, then I'll still be doing that and helping people with it.

Only three years left of high school after this year, ay caramba. Which isn't even half way through.

Why am I so focused on college? I'm not sure. But I really want to go, and my latest goal is Minnesota. So yeah.

Well, I'm off to watch some more Anger Management.

Peace, Magic, and Music,

~*Me*~

Here are some pictures of trees and stuff that I've taken. Pretty fall colors!

Tuesday November 20, 2009: Creeping, and Excitement

Song on Repeat: "My Life" by Billy Joel
Mood: Tired, excited!
"They will tell you
You can't sleep alone
In a strange place,
Then they'll tell you
You can't sleep with somebody else"

I can't help being a creeper sometimes. Lets just get that out there in the open. I mean seriously though people, everybody does it!
Don't say you've never checked out an ex's facebook or myspace to see if they're dating someone new, or you've never Googled someone's name. You'd be lying.
It's called curiosity, people! I mean, sheesh.
(This is the part where I confess to being a creeper today). I mean, it just kinda happens. You can't help it sometimes.
It's not like I do anything big. Just the random searching of friends who do sports to see if their name has been in the newpaper. No biggie!
Hmph.
Everybody does it. Just saying.

So I'm really excited for the games tomorrow! I mean seriously, I've been looking forward to them forever, as I've said before. So the fact that they're finally tomorrow is making me thrilled out of my mind and excited, despite my sore arm and annoyance that I have to wear a splint on it.
Tomorrow is also The Parentals' anniversary. Yup.
Oh yeah, so I was also excited about the concert on Thursday, but unfortuantely for me, the date got changed to the 20th, so I have to wait all the way until next Friday!!!! Which makes me kinda sad on the inside. But Jason says it's good, because they needed more practice anyways.
But he's still coming to the game tomorrow to hang out for a few minutes and give me the tickets. Which reminds me, I need to put the money for mine in my wallet to bring to the game tomorrow. I'll forget it, haha. Maybe I should just hang it on the fridge....I'm so dang excited for life in general. I mean seriously!
I may or may not have printed out a poster for the concert, haha.
Creeperish?
Nah.
I'm so excited! I can't get over it! XD
I'm just not looking forward to having to wait all freaking day tomorrow for the games. Because sometimes, the days just go crazily slow. But I'll survive, as hard as it might be.
AHHHHHH!

OK, you know what, I'm so going to be even more hyper next week before the concert. Obviously, I'm going to post again before then, but just fyi in case I don't mention it before then, expect pictures!
Maybe some from tomorrow, I don't know. Depends.

So I'm gonna take care of the money right now so that I don't forget to do it later. And I have to brush my teeth, and go to church band rehersal.

Yup, I'm off to do all that..

Peace, Magic, and Music,

~*Me*~