Keeping Promises!

Song on Repeat: "Beautiful Disaster" by Jon McLaughlin

Mood: TIRED, sore

"She would change everything

Everything, just ask her

Caught in the in between

Of beautiful disaster"

Well hello there! I'm actually doing what I said I would for once! And yes, that means......posting on the weekend!!! Which I learned a couple years ago was sort of a "no-no" for bloggers. Well, at least the people who are super lucky and have a gazillion people reading and commenting. (Not that I'm jealous or anything.....).

But I'm doing it anyway.

As I mentioned in my last post, this past week was the first week of Band Camp!! It was......crazy.

We were super lucky because the weather was awesome all week. It rained some on Tuesday, but not much, and it was never really that hot. Around 90 was the hottest it got all week, so that was awesome.

We got a ton done!!! It was great. I'm super proud of everyone, because it was so productive! Our director even said it was the best he's seen a band from our school do in the ten years he's been at the school, so that's awesome!!!

I would love to tell you about a certain part of the show that I'm crazy excited about, but I'm not going to in case anyone from my family reads. I'm keeping it a secret until Preview Show, which is next Friday. I'm honestly amazed it's still a secret, but happy, too.

So yeah, it was a really good week. I'm rather sore, and crazy tired despite sleeping for twelve hours last night (I honestly needed more than twelve hours), but it's okay. I pulled a muscle in my butt on Monday (like a pro. And no, I'm unfortunately not kidding), so that made the week super pleasant -sarcasm!- but I wasn't the only person who was crazy sore. Virtually everyone is hobbling around like old people by the end of the week. It's ridiculous.

But we got a ton done, and it was worth it. I have spectacular tan lines (I didn't get burned at all!! It's awesome!), which will get even better next week, and nice muscles in my legs from marching and doing a lot of running.

I swear I exercised more on Monday from eight in the morning until noon than I did the whole rest of the summer. Assistant drum majoring is so fun, even though it's a lot of work. (Well, maybe not that much, but it's a lot of pressure).

Pretty much every muscle in my body is at least a little sore, and I'm so happy to have this weekend to recover. But I wish I was still sleeping right now - I did the math and I spent more time at the school this week than sleeping. Even rehearsing, I spent more time on than sleeping. Ridiculous. But so very worth it.

Today, I said goodbye to Michael. He's leaving for college on Monday. I feel like we hardly ever saw each other this summer, which is really sad because he lives a 30 second walk away.

I'm going to miss him so much again. Seriously.

I feel like all of my friends are leaving me. Well, obviously not all of them, but a good number.

Michael is leaving on Monday, Teresa and Ian are leaving for the first time in less than two weeks, my friend Tom left yesterday (which makes me sad because we were both so busy this summer we didn't see each other at all!), Justin is leaving in a couple weeks.......everyone is leaving me. It makes me want to cry.

When Teresa leaves, I assure you, I will be a mess. It won't be pretty.

I wish everything could stay the same. I wish no one ever had to leave, because it feels like right now, everyone is. I miss people that haven't even left yet.

Change is scary. It's just.....it's awful. I don't want anyone to ever leave me.

At the end of the summer, which, as much as I deny it, is coming in a few weeks, my advisory is going to have to go back to school and meet our new advisor. The person we'll be with for our last two years of high school. I still ask why our old teacher had to be taken away from us. I miss him.

I hate change. And let me tell you, if I could redo my whole sophomore year, starting with last summer in about July, I totally would in a heartbeat.

I know you're supposed to live with no regrets, and I know that every single thing that happens is something that can be learned from, and it makes you who you are, but things are just so hard sometimes. I don't want anyone to leave me.

(Sorry, this is me being really tired and kind of depressed).

Anyway, that's about all I have to say for now. Sorry it changed into all depressing and not fun to read. I'm off to go catch up on the rest of the stuff I've missed on the computer since I've been at band.

Peace, Magic, and Music,

~*Me*~